No, not the "refreshing, oriental, woody fragrance" by Calvin Klein.
Rather, the arresting, dominating, persistent state-of-mind that occasionally consumes me.
I'm usually not a very obsessive person. In fact, I'm usually pretty aloof about most things. But I've been consumed recently, and I'm kind of embarrassed to admit what I'm obsessed about.
Sigh...
Here we go.
Youtube hits.
Yes, the number of times people watch my videos.
Oh god, it hurts to even write it. I suddenly feel like a 13-year-old with nothing better to do than slack off on homework and sit at the computer, checking again and again to see how my video is doing.
And it doesn't stop at video views! I'm obsessed about how many YT subscribers we have, how many YT friends we have, what the comments are, what the video responses are. Luckily, I stop short of doing math to determine the difference in hits from one day to the next.
But don't think it hasn't crossed my mind.
I've been living in a very strange virtual world lately. A lot of my life takes place online because of my web series. Almost all my emails anymore are from youtube or myspace. I communicate with people I've never met, who live halfway across the world. While it's cool to connect with new people like this, I'd have to say this obsession is drawing me away from my real life quite a bit. I don't get very many "real" emails these days. And it occurred to me yesterday that this is because I don't send very many anymore! Because I'm totally, ridiculously obsessed with this online world of hits and comments and pm's!
So, yeah. I'm gonna try to step back a bit from this obsession, because, honestly, it's not helping my video views increase any faster.
